the first flower you've ever given me, and it will never wither away and die, it is here to stay, kind of like my feelings for you <3
i still cry every now and again because i miss you, because my heart is shattered that i am no longer with you. yes i do love again, but i can't get over you. i can't stop wishing and wanting to be with you. my mind knows that it would be stupid to ever get back together, but my heart never wants to let go of you, it wants to hold onto you forever... and always. those words you used to say, the way you made me happy, made me laugh, smile.. love. and now its jealousy, angry, upset, ashamed, broken. why is it so hard to heal? i tried to force my self to move on, to leave and forget you. but that made the tears stream down even more... i love you, but we can no longer be... a we.. i know deep down that we wont ever be together again. but heart break is honestly the most painful thing, after 4 years of loving you, after you being my first love, my first everything.. people tell me only time can heal wounds, and that i shouldnt want or love you anymore after being treated so poorly.... i guess i'm just one of those stupid girls, because i can't get over you... no matter how hard i try... you will always be in my heart, forever always.
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man i havent been on this in ever, been really busy with my art. So i thought i would post a bit of my work (:
ShannNicolee` <3
It takes time to heal a broken heart
but during that time you feel hollow, destroyed, like there is no point in going on
the missing sensation for that one you have loved for so long
you wish to be back in their arms
you wish to be comforted
but the only one who can console you, is the one who you're broken heart is mourning for
ShannNicolee`<3
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but during that time you feel hollow, destroyed, like there is no point in going on
the missing sensation for that one you have loved for so long
you wish to be back in their arms
you wish to be comforted
but the only one who can console you, is the one who you're broken heart is mourning for
ShannNicolee`<3
Summer has felt like it just went by in a few weeks, it's sad to think that school is going to be back... waking up at 6AM .. yaaaayyy...
But at least i wont have to feel so anti social like i feel for most the summer ahah. But thank gawd for being in grade 11, you get all the courses YOU want not what the school forces you to take. I have all my good friends in my classes which is going to be awesome, I can't wait to take the art program with one of my best friends Janaya.
And then i have Parenting with one of my other best friends Aaron. Apparently shes going to be the father in our relationship ahah, so that should be fun.
I hope all of you guys had an awesome summer too! (:
Thanks guys!
ShannNicolee`<3
But at least i wont have to feel so anti social like i feel for most the summer ahah. But thank gawd for being in grade 11, you get all the courses YOU want not what the school forces you to take. I have all my good friends in my classes which is going to be awesome, I can't wait to take the art program with one of my best friends Janaya.
And then i have Parenting with one of my other best friends Aaron. Apparently shes going to be the father in our relationship ahah, so that should be fun.
I hope all of you guys had an awesome summer too! (:
Thanks guys!
ShannNicolee`<3
